To Let Go...

Today’s article of mine is a bit out of place from the type I usually prefer to type about. I am sharing this with you because I felt like I should. It is not one of those things that I can come across on any normal day. The words that I am going to share with you are not mine, it belongs to my best friend. He is more like a brother to me. He has a habit of maintaining a journal in which he writes all kinds of stuffs and sometimes make me read some of them. Well, most of the times I find his writing totally alien, while, sometimes they have something more than just words.

In this post, I am sharing one such entry. You won’t believe the lengths and ways of persuasion I had to use in order to have his permission to post it.

This entry is very personal to him. It is about a person whom he admires a lot, but, as he once told me that one should always learn how to let things go, and, this is how he tried to let go:   

I unfriended you thrice, and, I don’t really know, what you think the reason behind it was. I won’t give any justifications, but, will simply write what I have to say.  

You see, I have thought of you quite a lot in the past and sometimes even today, but, try to do so in a different light. Being a human being, I can’t just undo or delete this fact. That’s is why, whenever I see your name and the only place where it appears is on fb, it stirs back some things that I would rather prefer to be settled. Lately, I was successful in gaining a considerable amount of control on the flow of my thoughts and emotions. But, you see, I am quite an amateur one and don’t understand, rather despise the complexities of life and the truth is, if we ever meet someday, under any circumstances, it isn’t just possible for me to see you simply as a friend.

I have utmost respect for the image I have of you, that is why I am writing these words to that image. I understand that me sort of proposing you and you accepting it is one of the weirdest, unpractical, and naïve notions one could ever have. I realize that completely. So, I request you not from my heart, but, from my brain to rather block me once and for all after reading these words. Please, do block me if you consent with what I wrote till now.

   

I won’t do anything like unfriending or blocking you. To be honest, I neither have the guts nor any intentions to do so.

You see that if you decide to block me, you will do me a great favor and help me move on rather quickly. The fact is that I think it isn’t really possible for me to forget you, it is quite logical if you think of it soundly, but, if you are blocking me, I can move on with an honest smile on my face.

Just one last request, don’t think of me as a bad or a selfish or a wicked sort of guy/a** h***. I can assure you that even though I don’t know many things about myself, but, I am sure that I am not wicked. I will always wish you happiness and serenity for an eternity. One last thing, your eyes are absolutely mesmerizing, till date, I have never seen eyes as radiant and spirited as yours.

Sayonara…..

This was his entry. While I was typing this article, he told me something and these are his words: “you know what, one should never fall for just the idea of being in love.”

I replied with a grin “brother, you would know better. I never really understood the adolescent version of love”.